Several years after I went to teacher training, I started to wonder why I hadn't opened a studio yet. I had known since training that I would open a studio of my own one-day, but I couldn't figure out why I wasn't moving in the direction of doing so and I wondered what was keeping from moving forward.
I so vividly remember one particular morning; I was in the shower and I asked myself out loud, "What are you so afraid of?" I paused, wondering if I would get an answer back, afraid of what I would hear back.
The answer that came was my kids. I was afraid of not being able to fulfill my commitment to them and I was afraid that I would be pulled away from them. I adore my kids. Not only do I love them, but also I really like them, even now as teenagers. I have certainly become a better person because of my kids. Many times in my life, since being a mother, my only motivation to keep trying was because of my kids. I knew if I were better, they would grow up to be healthier in all areas of their lives.
How would I continue to be there for them, if I opened up a business? I knew I would want to give 100% to this business because the yoga is something I truly believe in and have gained so much from.
Almost immediately, my next thought was that I would have to look at this business like my third baby. Each of my two kids is so incredibly different. Each has different interests; different things that motivate them; different challenges that have had to be worked out through the years. If I could be successful at working with each of them individually and keeping our family unit strong, then maybe I can add in the studio and work it the same way and I believe to this day that this little conversation I had with myself in the shower was what really allowed me to open up to the possibility of this studio and let go of the fear that I couldn't do it.
Many people come in and say they are afraid of the heat. They are afraid they are not flexible enough or strong enough or they have no balance. And when they write to me or talk to me about why they are afraid, I tell them that I can relate and what I know is that if they choose to take that step, the gifts waiting are immeasurable.
So here we are, three years in. When I look around at what this studio space has grown into, I sometimes wonder how it happened. But as I reflect upon how incredibly strong our yoga studio community has become, I understand how this all happened. Every person who has walked through our doors has taken the chance to explore something new of them selves. For some, it was an easy decision. For others, it took a lot of courage. For most, the benefits have exceeded any ideas originally set. I see everyday the achievements made because of your willingness to look at things with a different perspective.
The number one thing that I find 100% joy in at the studio is when I walk in that room to teach. I am continuously inspired and humbled by all of you. Thank you for three years of what is only the beginning of an incredible experience that we all share together.