I think I am finally
willing to embrace the truth that life is about change.
And willing to
celebrate change as if it were a piece of the most delicious chocolate cake or
the feeling you get when you watch your kid achieve something that allows them
to shine or when you have a day out with your spouse and are reminded of what
brought you together in the first place or that feeling you get when you walk
out of a yoga class and feel at complete peace with yourself.
I have worked most of
my life trying to get everything in its place, thinking that when I did, only
then I would realize the joy of life. I am finding out that it doesn't
work that way; regardless of how hard I try.
One of my yoga posture
dreams is to do a standing split in standing bow. Every time I come into
class to practice I imagine what this accomplishment would look like. I
have wanted it so badly at times, that I have hurt myself by pushing too
hard. And I believe that how you practice your yoga is a clear example of
how you live your life. For better and for worse. And for me, it
seems that to use my practice to look at myself and determine what is well for
me and what is not, will only allow for me to do things outside of my yoga
practice that actually encourage a joyful life.
Over these past
several years, while running the yoga studio, some of my biggest personal
growth spurts have taken place. And with the growth spurts, so much
change has found it's way into my life. I am sure change has always been
there, but I was always too busy trying to control it and trying to push too
hard to make it fit into my life in the way I wanted. I used to be a
person that could plan out a day, a week, a party, a vacation minute by minute
and I would make sure everything went as planned. What I have learned
from running the studio is that there simply is no way around change.
Things come up that I have absolutely no control over and somehow I must find a
way to adapt. I am finding that I don't have or simply do not want to use the
energy to fight against change any longer.
As I sit and write
this, I wonder how this recent realization will unfold and I imagine that once
I am beyond the phase of sitting in the middle, wondering what changes to make
and how to make them, that things will work out wonderfully. I do know
that, if what I have been gifted through all of my experiences, with all of
you, at this yoga studio is any indication of what the rest of my life will
bring, I have a lot to look forward to and be excited about.
Thank you for that.
I wish for you to
continue with your practice through the holiday season and in the coming
year. And if you haven't practiced in a while, I welcome you to come
back.
It is truly the best
thing you can give to yourself.
Namaste,
Giina
